So I completed clomid….it wasn’t too bad…my mood was better than on prometrium..but I was bloated, and slightly emotional. I cried at a few things but not too bad. I like it better than prometrium. I was lucky that I didn’t have severe side effects to it like some women do.
After completion I was to go to the RE for my second ultrasound (yes, vaginal again) to check the growth of my follicles and to see when I am supposed to give myself the trigger shot to release my egg so we can inseminate and hopefully become preggo.
After my ultrasound the tech told me I had one follicle that was 12mm a few that were 10mm, a few 11 mm and a lot that were between 7mm-9mm. She told me it would be a few more days until I took the trigger shot but things were looking good. The nurse came in when she was done and said the images will be shown to the RE and she would give me a call later that afternoon.
Well my RE was not pleased with my growth and the nurse told me that it was because I did not respond to clomid. Because I did not respond she did not want to continue this month and it was a scratch. I was at practice when I got the call and had to put on a fake smile and finish practice before I could let it sink in that it didn’t work.
I was heart broken and upset and just sad that I didn’t respond….I was broken and my worst fears were realized. Its odd but I did feel like something was wrong with me but everyone said “o no you’ll be fine, you’re young and have young eggs”…apparently my eggs are so young they don’t want to mature.
I only allowed myself to cry for a second…(ok maybe 2 minutes) but realized it could be worse…but the doc still had hope. She didn’t say we cant have a baby we just had a minor set back…a set back that still hurt but a minor one in the grand scheme of things.
So now we wait for my next cycle to start (no clue if it will have to be forced again or not) then we move on to stronger meds… and hope I respond to them…I will be doing 5 days of injections. These are (to my knowledge) administered the say way the trigger shot is except I have to mix them myself…so hopefully this will be done during the week so I don’t have to worry about doing it while we travel and in the middle of a game possibly.
So we had a set back…but we got through it without being too upset. I was sad and I did have a moment where I cried but it wasn’t too long…and Elise was great. She listened to me pouting but didn’t tell me I was being irrational or anything…without saying too much she said the right things to get me though my sad days…Sadly I got the call on a night that I had to teach class after practice and staying in the office and did not get to see her until a full 24 hours after I got the call…but she had a great hug and loving heart waiting to cheer me up and let me know it will be ok. I’m not sure what I did to deserve her, but I’m glad she is my copilot on this journey of a lifetime…
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